I was stuck and a little scared of transformation

I don’t know about you, but this year is starting beautifully for me. I felt like I was in this stuck phase towards the end of 2022. It was almost like I was holding onto the in-between phase of growth and the next level of transformation.

I realized that the discomfort of the in-between was far worse than the discomfort of the unknown. If I’m not making sense right now, hang tight I’ll give you some examples. We go through these phases of growth and change, it can be really scary to take that leap and it can also be scary to release a past version of yourself that you no longer align with. I was in the middle of that and I’ll be honest, it sucked. It was frustrating, exhausting, and annoying. I now see that I was just getting in my own way of progressing forward.

I had a lot of transitions happening in 2022. I was fully diving into my holistic health coaching business, ending the travel lifestyle, settling into a new apartment in a new state, and finding a rhythm with my routines, habits, and mindset.

Of course, I gave myself grace through this time, but like I said before, toward the end of the year I was feeling stuck and almost giving myself too much grace. Perhaps even using that as an excuse to not take proper action toward my goals.

I would get into a rhythm with exercise and then fall off track. I would pivot focus and get into a rhythm with cooking meals but then fall off track. Same with cold plunging, going in the sauna, doing a nighttime routine, reading, etc. It was like I had all the tools, the plan, and the knowledge surrounding why I was implementing specific habits but I couldn’t get into a rhythm with all of the above. I was scared of what would happen if I saw myself transform into a higher version of myself, knowing that when I got into the rhythm I would look and feel differently. Maybe even wonder what I would shed as I grew into this new rhythm, like friends, followers, a certain mindset, old comfort habits, vices?

Something clicked for me though and I was ultimately sick of my own bullshit. The annoyance I felt within that in-between stage was getting so uncomfortable I couldn’t help but leap without the net into the unknown of the next phase of my journey.

I also want to mention that I felt similar within my business, content creation, and my creativity but I won’t get into that.

So, do you want to know what changed? A few things actually. For one, my mindset. I worked through some of my limiting beliefs and called myself out. I reflected in a journal and truly asked myself if I was showing up as the best version of myself and if I wasn’t I addressed why. I meditated and utilized hypnosis to help rewire my subconscious brain and debunk a lot of conditioned thoughts I was having. I put myself out there and went to reiki to shift my energy and provide myself with an opportunity to gain a deeper understanding of myself. I found a pilates X strength program that provided me with structure in my workouts and got me excited to move my body every day. I found new recipes and organized my home environment (especially in the kitchen) so that I could feel clear, organized, and motivated to make meals again. I scaled back my morning and night routines so that I could stick with them more consistently again and could rebuild my confidence within those precious moments of the day.

Most recently I re-created my vision board and wow is it SO DAMN MOTIVATING, it is my phone screen and computer screen background. It helped me connect with my WHY for all I aspire to achieve and gave me the motivation to hold myself accountable.

I know that’s a lot and it wasn’t all this month, it was a work in progress that ultimately unfolded so beautifully to start the year.

Now I've been exercising regularly, making nourishing meals, have a plan for implementing specific habits at specific times, have a better organization of my holistic tools, and I’m talking kindly to myself. Acknowledging the parts of my body I love, hyping myself up, taking selfies, and not caring as much about judgment from others.

If you’re in that stuck phase like I was, trust the process, but also check in with yourself. Reflect on where you are and where you want to go. More importantly, be honest with yourself and identify if you’re holding yourself back from growth and transformation like I was.

If you need some help or guidance reach out! You can connect with me on IG @carlymiceli or send me an email - nutrition@carlymiceli.com